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Mist and Sun and the Meaning of Life

September 9, 2008

I love back roads. Swervy, windy, half in shadow, half in sun ribbons of asphalt. They’re like “mobile prayer” for Rebecca and I. Add a little Lord of the Rings or Dances with Wolves soundtrack music into a Sunday drive and you are GONE… floating away to Happy Land, the Land of Contemplation! And all’s right with the world! Well, mostly.

My drive into school each morning is a gift; back roads abound! There are a number of paths to take and I generally mix it up from day to day. Case in point: just last week, after passing it for three years in moderate “haste,” I decided to take “Grubb’s Mill Road” for a spin.

Now don’t judge a road by its name. As I made my way over hill and dale (what is a dale anyway?) I was literally captured by the sunlight streaming through morning mist over wet grass. I flipped on the hazards and with the handy iPhone (I know I know, Geek Boy Returns) I snapped a few pics. One is handsomely portrayed in this post above for your observation. Click on it and it should fill the screen…. go ahead, try it!

Now curiously, I was able to use this image as a teaching moment in class that very day. I start off my freshmen theology course light on the homework, heavy on the heartwork. I invite them into a fresh way of looking at the world…. into a “sacramental” vision. Afterall, this is how a Catholic sees the universe….. as a mosaic full of meaning, an icon, a Mystery wrapped in ribbons of protons, neutrons, and electrons. This is pretty dang exciting. Here’s that quote I love to quote… again:

To materialists this world is opaque like a curtain; nothing can be seen through it. A mountain is just a mountain, a sunset just a sunset; but to poets, artists, and saints, the world is transparent like a window pane – it tells of something beyond….a mountain tells of the Power of God, the sunset of His Beauty, and the snowflake of His Purity.
– Bishop Fulton Sheen

Back to the back roads…. This image (above) was breathtaking. And I guess what intrigues me about an encounter like this is how the physical channels the spiritual, the visible can communicate the invisible. How does it happen that we alone in the universe can “see” this? Apprehend this? Comprehend this and be captivated by this? Objectively, the scene I saw was made of water vapor, chlorophyll, and a swirl of elements bending and twisting in the rising heat of a large ball of gas 93,000,000 miles away. But it was beauty that caught me. The squirrels didn’t stop and stare. Mr. Bluebird didn’t land on my shoulder and strike up a conversation on the matter, cool as that would have been.

For some reason, I saw in these elements a wonder, a story, a window that opened into my own experience. In this sacrament of the present moment, as the mist swirled before the sun, I thought of our sorrow thick and dank, sapping us of hope. The trees reached in and broke its cloudy mask, like the hands of friends praying for us, reaching into our lives and rooting us in hope. And then the Sun, beyond hope, pierced that mist of melancholy like a dozen swords of holy light that shone and fell upon the earth. And behold, there was light and heat and a new kind of “illumination.”

I think it was Dostoyevsky who once wrote that, in the end, “Beauty will save the world.” Well, Beauty has arrived, and often lies waiting for us on the back roads, in places least expected, in sudden and sharp turns from shadow into light. Perhaps all we’re asked to do is stop and look with love and gratitude.

Carry, Push, or Draw?

July 30, 2008

Well, my nephew and I have returned from a refreshing and simultaneously exhausting trip up North…. yes, even the word North conjours up sweet memories.… of mosquitoes.

For some cosmic reason out of my control (what is in my control anyway?) the usual blissful, warm days, cool nights, birches, balsam, and sea breezes that I was accustomed to tasting in my trips to Maine at the end of July were… gone. Thanks to some Tropical Storm hundreds of miles away, we were sogged with fog, rained on by rain, and hugged with humidity. And those winged harbingers of doom… oiy!

Mosquitoes the size of small mammals were everywhere. They could bite through jeans! JEANS! I’m not making that up! I think they’ve been genetically manipulated or something… but why? and by whom? Ah, that’s a thought for another day.

Seriously, the trip was great. It wasn’t all rain and pain. What’s life without bugs and suffering anyway? My dad says the skeeters are here to remind us that “this ain’t heaven.” Fair enough. We still hiked, and biked, and kayaked; swam, jumped, swatted, laughed, ate, sang, ate some more, spoke of deep mysteries and prayed… so that’s pretty good stuff. Here’s the blog link if you care to peruse the pics!

Now this experience of seven days with my 14 year old nephew (and Flapjack, our mascot) got me thinking about the ways we encounter life… I mean Life. I mean the Truth and Beauty and Goodness and Unity that Life contains deep within because God planted it there. It’s an encounter which many of us (14 to 38 to 98 years old) have sometimes achieved, missed, ignored, or still seek. So how and when do we “get” it? And can we facilitate the encounter?

I had some serious plans for last week. Perhaps too many. You know the old saying “How do you make God laugh? Tell Him your plans.” Well, I came to realize that the invitation to such mysteries has to always remain just that…. an invitation. It can’t be forced, faked, or fabricated. It’s best if it’s simply unveiled, pointed to, released simply with a look or a silence. You drive and you look out the window, and there’s life. And you watch it unfold like a road before you.

I was reading a fantastic book called Three Philosophies of Life by Dr. Peter Kreeft this summer (for the second time ’cause it’s that good) and I came across a line about this encounter. He said that there are three ways to enter into life:

1. We can be carried. No work involved, no will, just lifted here and there like a pile of heart and bones. We don’t learn much or stretch our spiritual muscles this way. We’re like jello, and we simply fill the mold we’re carried into (Realistically, we need this until we’re oh, ten or eleven… I think. And other times too, it’s flexible).

2. We can be pushed. Just do it because I said so. It’s not always pleasant but it gets the chores done. It’s kind of like the Purgative Way of the spiritual life. I don’t wanna but I gotta.

3. We can be drawn. Oh here it is…. this is the moment when the alabaster jars of God’s fragrance, stored up in the things of earthly life, break open and lift our eyes to Heaven! This is more akin to the Illuminative or Unitive Way of the spiritual life. To be drawn is to give in to the tractor beam of Grace, to let down our shields and allow ourselves to be taken in by that Death Star that is the Pierced Heart of Jesus. Yes, death to self, death to self-absorption, and to what others think of me. That’s a trap with a strong gravitational pull. But everything created by our Loving God has a stronger magnetic property. We just have to orient ourselves towards it. “To see the miraculous within the ordinary is the mark of highest wisdom.” (Ralph Waldo Emerson)

My prayer for Sean, as he enters high school this fall, is that he surrenders more and more to this magnetism of grace and truth and goodness, in his friendships, his studies, his prayer, his looking at life as it unfolds before him. I was privileged to be drawn to God by Sean’s easy laugh, quiet peace, crazy quotes from Nacho Libre, and his willingness to journey into the unknown with me. This is one extraordinary young man; I know he’ll navigate well through the trails ahead!

Just bring some bug spray, Sean. There could be mosquitoes.

Pai’y!

Alligators and Boars and Jesus, Oh My!!

July 13, 2008

Today wraps up the first annual “Be Not Afraid” Youth Conference Retreat at Ave Maria University near Naples, Florida; strategically held at a place where there is, in fact, much to fear.

The following list of deadly beasts is authentic and has not been doctored up or exaggerated in any way (and was revealed to me by “Christie,” who gave me this list AFTER she picked me up at the Fort Myers Airport… ha ha ha)

– panthers
– black bear
– wild boar (I met a guy named Anthony who has bagged 14 of them with
a bow and arrow. I am NOT making any of this up)
– alligators (exhibit A, pictured above; sadly his ferocity may seem
dwarfed by my finger. I found him this morning, floating just outside
the main hall where the retreat was held. Awesome)
– five species of poisonous snakes (and of course, lots of non-
poisonous cousins)
– black widow spiders (helloooooooo)
– mosquitoes that could carry small packages on their backs.

“Be not afraid.”

Indeed.

Ave Maria University just moved into town a couple years ago, in fact, the town is being built “around” the University. It’s brand new. So as Christie says, “Nature has not quite gotten the concept yet of “people.” It got me thinking though, as I pedalled into town this morning on a
borrowed bike, past palm trees, floating gators, and prehistoric birds drying their huge wings atop street lights (while whistling the theme from Jurassic Park) – I think the scariest presence of all for some of these teenagers is God Himself.

Who is He really?
What does He want from me?
Does He know me, all of me, my heart’s deepest secrets and desires?
Do I even know myself?

It’s scary terrain, this interior landscape of the human heart, no doubt. But to live an authentic human life, we must step out, wade into the water, take that uncharted path.

Leaving today, with the final farewells and the testimonies of the young, I knew many had discovered some peace. A fellowship too, so desperately needed. And best of all the truth that God is not scary; life without Him is.

Youth Conference at Ave Maria University

June 5, 2008

Ave Maria University is hosting a dynamic conference for youth this summer (July 11-13) in sunny Florida. It’s a great time for the youth to go deeper in their faith, meet some new friends, and experience God’s love in a place set apart just for them. Here are the details from the AMU website. PS – I was invited to speak 😉

SPEAKERS:
Matt Smith (from Life Teen), Bill Donaghy (Catholic Nerd), Franciscan Friars of the Renewal (these guys are like Catholic Super Heroes)

WHO:
Rising High School Freshman to Graduating Seniors

WHAT:
A weekend packed with dynamic talks, praise and worship, perpetual adoration, prayer, fellowship and entertainment.

WHERE:
Ave Maria University, Ave Maria, FL

WHEN:
July 11-13, 2008

HOW:
Registration is $125 and will include a NON-REFUNDABLE deposit of $50 for each person.
“Be Not Afraid…Open wide the doors to Christ!”- Pope John Paul II

For more info, visit the online registration page here.

The Good Stuff

June 2, 2008

“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is gracious, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.”
– Philippians 4:8

Spending time two weeks ago with my friend Fr. Kauth down in North Carolina was pure grace. It was a blessing to meet the young people and to wander through the mountains with them, to pray a little, laugh a lot, ponder some deep thoughts, and at the end of the day, to slide under the tree branches that set apart the rectory garage (the Bat Cave, as Father affectionately calls it) and just BE with an old friend.

We cooked up a delicious dinner, talked about the paths our lives have taken, and dove into the topics we love: faith and culture, good books, philosophy and theology… the things that have always wheeled us around the Son in a gravitational pull since the seminary days we shared 13 years ago.

Funny how distance or time or the thousand splintered fragments of life’s crosses never seemed to throw us off of that orbit. When I wonder how it could be, the only answer that comes is Grace. What else? The years of 1993 to 1996 at St. Charles Borromeo Seminary were like a golden age, and the oddest thing is, we knew it. Sure, there was work and study and much discernment regarding a call that for Fr. Matt continued on to ordination, and for me moved on to the vocation of marriage. But in those three years, the young men who were called together at that precise moment in time had a strong sense of synchronicity, of a Guiding Hand that was shaping our hearts and minds for tasks to numerable to imagine. Even now as I look at my classmates, those ordained and those who left early and discovered another call, the tasks spill out in tiny rivulets like incense from a golden thurible, filling the world with that fragrance of the Eternal that caught and captivated us.

Somehow we few, we happy few were given a glimpse into the Eucharistic Heart of the Hidden God, the God Who loves to play hide and seek with His children. And that Hidden God captured us, heart, mind, and soul.

I remember one morning, on a walk through misty shadows, I made my way to the Chapel for morning prayer. I was part of the “Vampire Club” as we called ourselves (Picture the Dead Poet’s Society with cassocks and prayer books. We would find our dark corners of chapel and make our holy hour before the red glow of the sanctuary lamp). I found the now Fr. Matthew walking the same way in that pre-dawn darkness, but as we turned towards St. Martin’s, a pale rosy glow in the east caught our eyes. Wordless, we both headed for a massive elm tree and stood beneath it’s dark boughs. For what felt like a few minutes, we stood “like sentinels awaiting the dawn” – and it came. Pouring out fire over the green fields, stirring the birds into song and the bells eventually to peel and crack the air with a call to celebrate another Day.

It was contemplation; a deep gaze into the heart of things, a letting go to the pull of Beauty, the irresistible attraction to wonder that to this day takes only a few words to reactivate and rekindle. I praise God for friendships like this, for kindred spirits.

When we turned away from the sunrise to head into chapel, we discovered that nearly an hour went by, and the chapel before us was now bathed in light! Isn’t that what Grace so often does? Light up what lies ahead of us as well as what lies behind?

A glass of wine with some friends
Talking to the wee hours of the dawn

Sit back and relax your mind

This must be, this must be, what it’s all about

This must be what paradise is like

Baby it’s so quiet in here…

– Van Morrison

A Carpet for the King

May 25, 2008

There are only two parishes in the country, that I know of, that have this tradition. (If anyone has seen it elsewhere, please drop a comment!)

For the Feast of Corpus Christi here at St. Francis Church in Franklin, NC, a Eucharistic procession will be led over a stretch of”sawdust carpets” – beautiful images from the Sacred Heart to the Holy Family laid out in dyed sawdust onto chalked grids as big as cars. What an amazing process. Families have been plugging away all afternoon and in just under an hour Fr. Matthew will lead us in Evening Prayer, then into the procession. Only the priest with the Blessed Sacrament raised high can walk over these works of art. A carpet for the King Who has become our very food; the Bread of Eternal Life.

(More of these incredible works of art are being uploaded to the “My Mac Web Gallery” link in the links section to the right. Once you’re there, click on the North Carolina album)

Above the Clouds

April 13, 2008

Just landed in Chicago and in the brief 18 minute flight from Milwaukee, a line from St. Therese popped into my head. “Above the clouds, the sky is always blue.”

To the cynic, the simplicity of this statwment is almost laughable. To the heart truly awake, it comes polished like sea glass, like a Buddhist koan, or a river stone.

Priest Eats Haggis

September 27, 2007

I think I’ve mentioned somewhere in this blog one of my favorite podcasts, the Daily Breakfast. It’s a collection of thoughts and experiences, random stuff from computers to movies, Harry Potter to holiness, all from a Catholic priest in the Netherlands, Fr. Roderick. He’s just started a new video podcast detailing trips he’s made throughout the world, his latest being Scotland (a country I’m deeply indebted to, as it gave me my grandmother, and was the land where my grandparents first met!). In this video, Fr. Roderick tastes a traditional sampling of haggis: sheep’s heart, liver and lungs, mixed with oatmeal and spices… Mmmm, yummy!

I love Fr. Roderick!! Do yourself a favor and subscribe to his podcasts here at www.sqpn.com!